Unbearable Pain: My Struggle With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Aaron Larson
Aaron Larson

A digital strategist with over a decade of experience in tech journalism, specializing in UK market trends and innovation.